THE LAST DAYS, 25 & 26, of Body/Mind Cleanse, without Food.

DAY 25

It's taken me all day to write, but finally, here we go. 
I awoke very well, with strong dreams...Essentially, I dreamt about what Yurai was feeling, which led us to healing. 

At 1am this morning, we participated in a world wide womb blessing attunement, as well as a moon blessing (for men), which was led by the incredible, Miranda Gray, leading lady on bringing light to what's otherwise terribly taboo: MENSTRUATION, & author of "Optimised Woman," and "The Red Moon." (Both of which Yurai owns, making me one very very very lucky lady!). ;)

We'd meditated for just under an hour, first to give healing to my womb and all that I am as a woman, accepting and sharing my divine femininity, after which, we shared outwardly, spreading the blessings and love. Last but not least, a meditation for Yurai, further healing, balancing out the masculine and feminine aspects of himself, whilst further harmonising us. 

It was quite an experience, to say the least. 
I'd already been preparing in the day, doing a meditation for my womb in the warm sun, in a playground laden with older women, busily chatting about life. I'm feeling all kinds of things around where I imagine my womb lays, as I am ovulating, which is doubly special during a full moon. 

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We awoke late and whilst still in bed, resolved some major stuff first thing in the morning, had beautiful sex, and really, had such a magical day. Both of us opened up ever more, and were feeling quite wonderful. 

Not eating is having no negative impact on me. We were encouraged to drink more water, as part of the meditations, which was easily done, as well as to eat, to help with detoxification of our bodies. 

There did come a point in the middle of the afternoon, that I had to lay down due to, not quite pain, but some sort of feelings going on around my womb. I meditated for it, as suggested by Miranda Gray (an ongoing daily meditation for just a few minutes, giving love and continued healing to my womb), and immediately slept. 

I awoke, bright and ready to go again, had the feeling for a bowel movement (which I even dreamt about ;)), and had a minor release. 

Eventually I was out, buying all the things I needed to make bread. The result, a beautiful Irish soda bread, made especially for Yurai. :) I also made a few other things today, out of sheer excitement- and, sprouting has begun for the commencement of my eating again. :)

For now, I'm very much looking forward to asparagus with lemon and butter. :))) 


Thursday, 07 May- DAY 26 & the day after I began to eat. 

So, I hit my threshold yesterday, on Day 26.  Yurai had already suggested I start eating a few days back as something didn't seem right with me. 

I'd said I was ok - it was the normal tiredness and pain associated with ovulating. I asked my body on Monday and Tuesday, if she needed food and she was fine without it, but yesterday, not ok. It was no longer pain from ovulation, there was much else going on. 

My left ear was hurting a lot and I felt queasy. I took the hint from my body - and especially my ear.

Left represents the feminine aspect of oneself, and pain in my ear on that side was telling me that there was something I wasn't hearing. I accepted that as my body's signal to commence eating.

 Once I did, the pain backed off, but not totally. After I'd had my soup, the pain was back. Strange? Not so much. 
I told Yurai, and he asked if I wanted to do EFT/tapping for it. I didn't sense the need as my thoughts were that the lingering pain had to do with my ego- that on a subconscious level, I was feeling guilty and disappointed with myself for not having made it to my intended 30days, as opposed to just 26.  
At this revelation, Yurai suggested I go to the bathroom, look in the mirror and apologise to my beautiful self, and thank her - he is such a wizard, really.

I apologized to my body and thanked her for everything over the past 25 days, that we made it, and that I promise to be good to her, to not take her for granted, to feed her with the most beautiful food, made with love, or blessed with my heart if I didn't make it. 

Ego dealt with and it was only after some time that I realized I no longer had an earache, and felt as light as a feather. :) 
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Gosh...I'm sitting in a cafe just now, feeling incredible whilst writing....I'm so grateful, to Yurai, and so very lucky to have him in my life, by my side.  We've learned so much about ourselves and one another through this cleanse, of which he participated 11 days. :) 

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Back to food! After my decision to recommence eating, the very first thing I picked up was the most beautiful fragrant tomato, at room temperature. I sliced it and ate it slowly, then another, before I made the pictured soup of garlic/ginger/onions/courgette/coriander/coconut oil/spring onions/tamari & wakame. I couldn't get enough of it, and thought I'd eat it for days and days, but seeing it this morning, I couldn't bear the thought of eating it again! 

[I know, I know, I started my food blog, with "My Food Manifesto,"  but haven't posted any food on it yet. All in due time, as I'm finished with blogging about the cleanse, and carry forward with food. I only don't know where to start- maybe with the soup? :) ]

Simple veg with homemade focaccia

Focaccia before baking

I'm picking up asparagus and peas today, along with more tomatoes. I want veggies and fruits so far, today anyhow, which is a far cry from last time I finished a 21 DAY cleanse. I stuffed my body like a turkey, with no regard for what I was putting in her, or when.....I was so arrogant, so very arrogant towards her. 

White bean & sundried tomato + Masoor
lentil & roasted red pepper hummus. 

I feel like this has been a brilliant reset, for my body. Having been an observer to myself during my deepest emotions, where the usual vice of food was not available, I had to deal with EVERYTHING, correction, I CHOSE to deal with everything...

Now, we continue forward in balance, in harmony, in yoga (which means union), of body and mind. 







My dear husband, Yurai Sipkovsky, I love you, thank you for everything. 

God, I love life - thank You.   

Notes from DAY 22-24 Body/Mind Cleanse- NO FOOD

Day 22 approx 5:30am

-Another early day

-Water meditation done

-So very grateful for this existence, this day, this body, which in all it’s abundant health, allows me to touch, taste, smell, and see clearly….I’m so blessed to be able to walk, talk, ponder, write, cook, give, create…and be.

I feel this is an extraordinary day. I get to play with food, whilst watching over kids as their parents are out shooting a music video.

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A brilliant day indeed.

Started out with a lovely breakfast for the children and Yurai, followed by preparing the infamous chocolate banana ice cream (complete with moosetracks! (little sandwiches of chocolate with peanut butter in the middle).

Into the freezer it went, and after some drawing with Mia, I headed back to the kitchen.

It was Indian food on the cards for Sunday lunch, and I though it best to prepare in advance. In doing so, I added to the menu. The idea started with a vegetable curry (potato, carrots, cauliflower & peas),  lentils & rice with cumin, to which I tagged on veggie koftas and roti. A LOT more work, which I didn’t think about, but was well worth it.

I’d resisted cooking Indian food whilst cleansing because I don’t measure anything, and taste my way through the spicing of it all. I had my testers though, and by the sounds of it, it all went quite well.

Went off to bed early, but as per usual these days, I didn’t sleep for a long time. I’m ok with that, as it just turns into ‘me time,’ and I get to meditate.

This new-found energy is wonderful, simply wonderful.

Day 23

A few hours of sleep, and up at 5ish, ready to go, but stayed in bed, as I’d already done all the prep work for food. Stared at the ceiling, happy, in love, watching Yurai sleep….

I can’t say it enough, I’m just so grateful.

Had an interesting dream. If you read a few days back, that I’d dreamt about a woman in a green satin dress (which I admired and wanted to make), who gave birth to a dragon, this was like part two of that: I was doing a fitting on myself, seeing myself trying on a green satin dress that I’d just made. I quite like this---moving forward, indeed. :)

   

I volunteered to do breakfast for the family as well as the scheduled lunch, and no one objected. ;)

It was relatively simple, pan-fried bread with rosemary, cheese, eggs, with a salad of thinly sliced courgettes (cooked quickly in butter and olive oil), shredded iceberg lettuce, caramelized red onions, rosemary & plum tomatoes.

I had no problems not eating with the everyone. Their happiness filled me.  :) 

The Indian lunch was great, though admittedly, I cooked enough to feed the whole neighborhood!! A good lesson, all in all about quantities of food, as I go forward with cooking for others -personal chef’fing. ;)

Oddly, or not, I was tired later, and not, at the same time. I took break from the kitchen, and moved into doing some numerology. More fun stuff. :) 

I had a couple of coffees with a little milk, which led to a bowel release fairly soon after. Don’t need it, stick to water.

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Feeling really really good, overall. Again, another day at peace, very much at peace, feet grounded in the state of love.

The way is very very clear.

Day 24

Finally, my body rested. Awoke at around 8:30am, feeling completely new.

We popped out to get a couple things for Yurai’s breakfast, and when he picked up ripe avocado’s, my mind went straight to my famous breakfast which I used to make for friends back in the UK.

Whilst preparing it for him, I had a beautiful conversation with my body. I was thinking about being hungry, which is starting to happen, especially knowing that my 30 days is almost up.

The conversation that occurred was about where I stand with food now, and my body. 

She knows that I am not punishing her, not refraining food from her. 

She knows that this is the union that needed to occur for so long, balance, this mind body balance – this incredible, never before feeling I’m now having.

This week is about further researching how to make our favorite things from scratch, like bread, like chocolate. I’ve already got chia seeds on the go, (sprouting), and will start the process with alfalfa, just as soon as I finish writing.  I look forward to bread the most, as it’s new for me, and I love to sprout wheat berries, and make my own flour.

I love this. I love life.

It’s 2:30pm, and I just had an unbelievable bowel release- like a real one. Well formed, dark, normal, something expected after eating, not drinking. 

What’s most interesting is that only a couple of hours ago, I’d said to Yurai that I felt the need to release, and it was the usual, sort of slimy, almost nothing after a coffee with milk. He said there’s still something stuck in me, I’m still holding on to something in my intestines. Boy, was he right! Every time we have this conversation, I release. He really is a wizard!

Also, I’m doing a ‘Womb Blessing,’ later tonight (at 1am), and was reading through the meditation that I’ll do pre, during and post, and in just reading it, I got emotional. The point is to heal, release old patterns, and shine in my divine feminine energy, whilst further embracing being in union with Yurai. I believe just envisaging the meditation to prepare for it, also contributed to my bowel release.

Again, so blessed by life.

As always, thanks for tuning in :**